Where do you see yourself in 5,10, 15 years etc….

I’ve been thinking a lot lately.  I know that it is January and a lot of people like to make new resolutions at the beginning of every year.  Well that isn’t me.  Mainly because I know that I might bake it a month for some resolutions and maybe 3 for others.  So I just don’t make them.

I have, however, been thinking about who I want to be.  Do you remember when you were a kid or in a youth program or in college or when ever and they gave you a piece of paper and asked you to write down where you wanted/what you wanted to be in 5, 10 or 15 years down the road?  I remember staring at that paper thinking “how the heck do I know?”  I knew a few things I wanted in life but I wasn’t on a time frame.  I wanted to get married and have children.  I thought about serving a mission.  I hummed and hawed about going to college until I was in high school and finally decided I wanted to.  I always wanted to stay in Idaho.  Other than that things are always changing aren’t they?  Hobbies, likes, dislikes etc.  So in other words I hated that question.

In December I started thinking about the new year and changes I might want to make to my life and realized that “who” I wanted to be.  Let me show you who I want to be.

Oklahoma Freewheel 009

Ok so this is the only photo I already had loaded in wordpress from when we lived in Oklahoma.  My point is that I want to be who I was in Oklahoma.  I don’t want to go backwards and I don’t mean just physically.  For some reason after we moved here to Illinois I lost part of who I was in Illinois.  I don’t know why and or how.  I was trying to explain this to my husband last night actually.  I told him I want to be who I was when we lived in Oklahoma.  His response was that we can’t have our happiness rely on how we feel physically alone.  I completely agree but there is more to it than that.

When we lived in Oklahoma I felt like a different person.  I was in better shape and at a better weight but I also wasn’t so selfish.  I looked for ways to serve and help those around me.  I did a much better just visiting people to make sure they were doing well or to see if they needed any help.  I was more organized,  I was less stressed, I was…..take a pick of the things that I was in Oklahoma.  I am not trying to say I was perfect or was awesome or a great example.  I’m just saying that I was much happier with how I chose to live while living there.  Some how I lost a lot of that after we moved here and I want it back.

So instead of setting new resolutions I have set up with my family a wellness/balance challenge.  Each week we add one new physical challenge, food challenge and spiritual challenge.  I’m honestly not keeping up with it very well.  But I’m trying and I am starting to feel more like myself than I have in a while.  I need balance in all the things I want in my life and this is how I’m getting there.