I’ve been thinking a lot lately. I know that it is January and a lot of people like to make new resolutions at the beginning of every year. Well that isn’t me. Mainly because I know that I might bake it a month for some resolutions and maybe 3 for others. So I just don’t make them.
I have, however, been thinking about who I want to be. Do you remember when you were a kid or in a youth program or in college or when ever and they gave you a piece of paper and asked you to write down where you wanted/what you wanted to be in 5, 10 or 15 years down the road? I remember staring at that paper thinking “how the heck do I know?” I knew a few things I wanted in life but I wasn’t on a time frame. I wanted to get married and have children. I thought about serving a mission. I hummed and hawed about going to college until I was in high school and finally decided I wanted to. I always wanted to stay in Idaho. Other than that things are always changing aren’t they? Hobbies, likes, dislikes etc. So in other words I hated that question.
In December I started thinking about the new year and changes I might want to make to my life and realized that “who” I wanted to be. Let me show you who I want to be.
Ok so this is the only photo I already had loaded in wordpress from when we lived in Oklahoma. My point is that I want to be who I was in Oklahoma. I don’t want to go backwards and I don’t mean just physically. For some reason after we moved here to Illinois I lost part of who I was in Illinois. I don’t know why and or how. I was trying to explain this to my husband last night actually. I told him I want to be who I was when we lived in Oklahoma. His response was that we can’t have our happiness rely on how we feel physically alone. I completely agree but there is more to it than that.
When we lived in Oklahoma I felt like a different person. I was in better shape and at a better weight but I also wasn’t so selfish. I looked for ways to serve and help those around me. I did a much better just visiting people to make sure they were doing well or to see if they needed any help. I was more organized, I was less stressed, I was…..take a pick of the things that I was in Oklahoma. I am not trying to say I was perfect or was awesome or a great example. I’m just saying that I was much happier with how I chose to live while living there. Some how I lost a lot of that after we moved here and I want it back.
So instead of setting new resolutions I have set up with my family a wellness/balance challenge. Each week we add one new physical challenge, food challenge and spiritual challenge. I’m honestly not keeping up with it very well. But I’m trying and I am starting to feel more like myself than I have in a while. I need balance in all the things I want in my life and this is how I’m getting there.